Every once in a while you may say to yourself how could I possibly face Hashem when I've created such a deep pit? And even more than that, how could you possibly tell me that I'm given reward for controlling myself when I created this desire. When I was younger I didn't have it. If I didn't read those things, if I didn't go to those sites, if I didn't look at those pictures, I wouldn't have had this situation. I made it, I created it; it's my fault. How could I face Hashem? And surely how could I expect to get reward for winning this fight?